Last night I attended a company sponsored “holiday celebration” and supper. I was actually urged to go by two co-workers of mine. The food was good and I had a LOAD of fun with my co-workers off the clock.
At one point in the evening, the Human Resources manager came up to the podium. She began reading from a list of people who had been recently hired and/or promoted. There were a lot of new people in the room, including myself. Now, I have worked for this company before, from 1999-2001, but then I left to go back to Tennessee. So technically I was a NEW hire, but neither my current co-workers nor the people I had known from before treated me as such.
Anyway, there was polite applause as each new worker was introduced as most of them were fresh off the street or from school or wherever. Some groups even gave a more rousing sound when one of their newly hired co-workers who were present was announced.
When she announced my name, the room erupted. It was shocking to me, as I didn’t see it coming. I was completely taken aback and embarrassed. And those of you, who really know me, know it takes a LOT to embarrass me. One other gentleman received a greater applause than me, and we were both there at the same time, only he stayed longer than I did at the first. It was truly amazing. I was proud of how I was received and what that meant to be remembered that way.
Then I began to think….what were they applauding? What did I show people? How do I exemplify Christ to a dying world? Why couldn’t I just bask in the glow?
Oh yeah, because it wasn’t my glow in the first place. I am nothing that God hasn’t poured into me already. I’m nothing without Him. The minute it becomes about me, it ceases to glorify Him.
Colossians 1:24-27(NKJV)-“I now rejoice in my sufferings for you, and fill up in my flesh what is lacking in the afflictions of Christ, for the sake of His body, which is the church, of which I became a minister according to the stewardship from God which was given to me for you, to fulfill the word of God, the mystery which has been hidden from ages and from generations, but now has been revealed to His saints. To them God willed to make known what are the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles: which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.”
I’ve floundered a lot lately it seems. It’s been hard to get motivated to do my quiet times, Bible study, and even to diligently search for a house of worship to learn and serve in here. It’s not that I haven’t done it AT ALL, it’s just that it’s been more hit or miss; no consistency.
I’m slowly (cause I’m a rock!) coming back to heart of it all. I’m remembering the reason I came back out here in the first place and how I feel that God wants to use me. I’m starting to remind myself more often that it’s not about me, it’s about Him.
This blog is a testament to that. Sometimes, you aren’t going to have all the answers. Sometimes, you are going to do more of what you consider, stumbling through the darkness, than shining light for those around you. Consider that the Bible says that the weak shall confound the strong, and the slow shall lead the wise. It’s not about me, and it never has been. It’s been about Him all along.
I got the message confused; but He never once lost sight of the goal. It’s hard telling you this; it’s embarrassing again. But sometimes, it needs to be, in order to realize how far along I really have been brought in my walk with Christ.
And also, to realize it’s NEVER, EVER too late to make a u-turn in your life. God IS a God of second chances. He isn’t disgusted by how you come to Him, but He doesn’t want to leave you the same way you came. When you come and let Him change you, it allows Him to interact through you, and affect even more people.
Start today. Start NOW. It’s not easy; but it’s easier than the alternative of living without Him.
Be blessed in the Lord today.